Jump

For so long I have been trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I have asked myself so many questions; What is important to me? What should I be doing with my life? Is it bad to just do something that I like? Do I have to do something that betters the community? So many times I have thought that I found what I want to do, only to change my mind later. Reflecting back on my thoughts and choices I realized that I was deciding what I wanted to do with MY life based off of what I thought OTHER people would think is good. What was I thinking?

For some reason I thought I would be failing those around me if  I did anything short of becoming a nun who gave everything to needy others, or devoted all of my time to bettering the lives of the less fortunate instead of working for a fun magazine or planning events for rich people who have everything they could ever want. I realized, just recently, that this doesn't make sense. The people around me who I was trying to impress and make proud chose what they wanted to do based on what makes them feel proud, happy and accomplished; why shouldn't I do the same?

So from today on I have decided to start fresh and fulfill my interests and passions my way. I've decided to jump into life and not look back.

From now on I will be the artist of my own life. I will no longer let others decide which strokes or colors to use. I will decide what the final product will be. My life is now a blank canvas and no one will paint it but me.